" You look so happy! Better than I've ever seen you:)". A good friend sent me this little message the other day, when she saw a picture with me y the girl I am dating. Well I just wanted to let y'all know that she is the most amazing person in the whole world.
She always apologizes for not doing enough for me, but she has no idea how she has changed me for the better. After I broke up with Diane, I didn't think that I would find a girl that would make me feel the way she did y that is true, I found someone that has made me feel alive. She makes me feel, like there is someone out there that needs me, to give her emotional support, to make her feel like nothing in the world can hurt her. I'm just doing my best to let her know that I care y that I'm not going anywhere.
The other night I was talking to her y was telling her why I liked her. First off, like most people, she can't handle compliments that well, but she had to move to the other couch, but I know she liked it, she was just embarrassed by it.
I'm happy, super happy. I am going to do what I can to make her life easier while I can. I'm also going to do my best to protect her from anything that might try to cause her harm.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Matthew 6:24
This verse of scripture has started to play out in my life as of lately. To be honest we are always faced with opostion in this world, some more than others y we can always choose to follow the path of the Lord or not to. There is no grey area when it comes to following the Lord's plan that he has laid out for us. That is why it is hard for me, I love someone so much that I want them in my life y have been trying to save the dying relationship over these past few months. I know what the problem is too, the problem is me. I am an actice memeber of the LDS church y this person detests the LDS church y all of their teachings. I am sorry I will not give up my religion, I know that sounds selfish, but I can't because it has shaped me into the man that I am y will help mold me into the man I will be.
This person, who so openingly detests my beliefs, is my father y he is a homosexual. Another thing that I have never told anyone, is that I miss him y wish that I could have a better relationship with him. The only thing is I am not willing to sacrifice what I will have to, to have the father y son relationship.
There has always been a strain on our relationship, due to the fact that I have been so active in the LDS church, that I knew one day it would cease to continue. We had a decent relationship after serving a two year mission for God in Argentina but, like most things, it was all erradicated by Prop 8, which I totally support.
Ever since then, my dad y his partner went through a falling out y he has gone under the radar. We used to text y talk but now it's all silent or if I get an email from him, I can't feel any love, I just feel cold.
Like I mentioned above my father hates the LDS church y I will not stop practicing my faith. That is why Matthew 6:24 comes into action. I have two fathers y I love both of them, but to follow one is not following the other.
I've heard it all from everybody. Miles your Dad is still your dad y it is unChristlike to discriminate others because of what they believe. Well I am not discriminating, I am waiting for him to love me for who I am y to say it. I am sick y tired of always trying, always hoping that he'll wake up y come back to me. Yet I know that the wedge has finally started to work. I can deal with that because I know that my other father will never leave me, no matter what y I will not sacrifce that relationship again to try y please people who don't care!!!!!
This person, who so openingly detests my beliefs, is my father y he is a homosexual. Another thing that I have never told anyone, is that I miss him y wish that I could have a better relationship with him. The only thing is I am not willing to sacrifice what I will have to, to have the father y son relationship.
There has always been a strain on our relationship, due to the fact that I have been so active in the LDS church, that I knew one day it would cease to continue. We had a decent relationship after serving a two year mission for God in Argentina but, like most things, it was all erradicated by Prop 8, which I totally support.
Ever since then, my dad y his partner went through a falling out y he has gone under the radar. We used to text y talk but now it's all silent or if I get an email from him, I can't feel any love, I just feel cold.
Like I mentioned above my father hates the LDS church y I will not stop practicing my faith. That is why Matthew 6:24 comes into action. I have two fathers y I love both of them, but to follow one is not following the other.
I've heard it all from everybody. Miles your Dad is still your dad y it is unChristlike to discriminate others because of what they believe. Well I am not discriminating, I am waiting for him to love me for who I am y to say it. I am sick y tired of always trying, always hoping that he'll wake up y come back to me. Yet I know that the wedge has finally started to work. I can deal with that because I know that my other father will never leave me, no matter what y I will not sacrifce that relationship again to try y please people who don't care!!!!!
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