Sunday, November 23, 2008

Friends vs Friends

While in a town named Emmett, ID for a week this summer, I was a carni there, I talked to a cowboy from Texas. This cowboy would go from fair to fair, with his wife, selling signs painted, yeah they were country signs, but I fell in love with one in particular. I had to buy the sign y now it sits in my room y every day I read;

"A good friend is someone that will come y bail you out of jail, while a great friend is the person sitting right next to you saying, Damn that was fun....".

A bunch of us have many friends in our lives, but it's those great friends that make life worth it. The ones, that no matter what, will never judge you on the things you have done in your life, they will always tell you how it is, no matter if it makes you mad or not. They do this because they love you y want you to see what you cannot see.
A great friend is the closest you can be to being family y not being family, it's blessing to have so many people like that in your life.
I can say that my old teammates y I are great friends. There isn't anything that hasn't happened that we are afraid to share one with another.
I just want to thank the Lord for placing these guys in my life because if it wasn't for them, then I have no idea where I would be in my life at the moment. I don't want to know either.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Yet again

I always end up in the wrong place at the exact wrong time. I've been hanging out with a female named Cassey, as of lately. I met her playing frisbee with some friends of mine y we've talked a lot since then.
As of recently I found out that she had been engaged before, so I am bold or dumb (however you look at it), to inquire more about that. What shocked me more was how she explained why she broke off her engagement, it reminded me of my own history with someone I cared about y why we really ended it.
Well Cass told me that she was still trying to get over her exfiancee, whom will be dubbed Tee. I mean her y Tee met before his mish at the "Y" y dated then y after he returned. They have all of the same friends, so they still see each other all of the time y it's hard on her.
Last night I was over at her place when Tee came over, sat down right by her y put his head on her shoulder and then started to cuddle with her. She just went back into her old habbit y started to go along with it.
At first, I was a little jealous, I will not lie until I saw the look Cass gave me, it was a look of confussion, pity, love, pain y anger. It made me so grateful that when D y I called it off that we stopped talking for a little while cause I don't know if we would have been strong enough to not cuddle when we say eachother or fall back into any of our old habbits.
Cass is scared of completely letting go of Tee, she hasn't mentioned that but you can tell. This come over, cuddle whenever is tearing her up inside more than it is helping her. I mean if Tee knew she wouldn't cuddle with him, then I doubt he would come over as much as he does.
Now she's looking for someone to turn to y it happens to be me. I need to stride carefully, cause I am friends with Tee y a lot of his other friends to. We shall see how I can truly help her in the end!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Love

We talked about a text that Elder Costas recieved, he mentioned it in this address to the church. The Text was based on a poem by Norma Marek. It reads,

If I knew this would be the last time I would watch you sleep,I would hug you tighter. I would plead with the Lord to protect you.If I knew this would be the last time I saw you walk out the door,I would hug and kiss you and call you back to hug and kiss you one more time.
If I knew this would be the last time I would hear your voice in prayer,I would record every gesture, every look, every smile, every one of your words,So that I could listen to it later, day after day.
If I knew this would be the last time, I would spend an extra minute or two to tell you, "I love you," instead of assuming you already knew it.
If I knew this would be our last time, our last moment, I would be by your side, spending the day with you instead of thinking,"Well, I'm sure other opportunities will come, so I can let this day go by."
Of course there will be a day to revise things,And we would have a second chance to do things right.Oh, of course there will be another day for us to say, "I love you."And certainly there will be another chance to tell each other, "Can I help with anything?"But in my case, there isn't one!I don't have you here with me, and today is the last day we have—our farewell.Therefore I would like to say how much I love you,And I hope you never forget it.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old.Today might be your last chance to hold tight to the hand of the one you love and show all you feel.
If you are waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?Because if tomorrow never comes, you certainly will regret for the rest of your life
Not having spent some extra time for a smile, a conversation, a hug, a kiss,Because you were too busy to give that person what ended up being their last wish.
Then hug tight today the one you love, your friends, your family, and whisper in their ears how much you love them and want them close to you.Use your time to say,"I'm sorry,""Please,""Forgive me,""Thank you,"Or even,"That was nothing,""It's all right,"
Because if tomorrow never comes, you will not have to regret today.The past doesn't come back, and the future might not come.

To all of those that have words left unsaid to loved ones, please utter them, it is the only true way of letting them know that you care. You may do things for them, but there is something special in saying those three words to others, I Love You.
I've made it a personal goal to try y atleast let my mother know that I love her, whenever I leave the house. Doing so, I feel uplifted everytime I get into my car, knowing I will not be home until the sun goes down.
Some may say, it's impossible to show or express my love to others, all I have to say is suck it up y learn how to do so!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Line for Line

Well Prop 8 passed. I am glad that it passed, I mean yeah. Well I have received three different emails from my dad, he sent them to the whole family, consiquencely my brother y I are the only active ones in the church, he mentioned how he wouldn't be supporting, financially y emotionally, any person that didn't denounce the LDS church. He also mentioned that he was not going to welcome any active LDS person into his home y would have to rethink his long term relationships with the LDS people he had in his life at the moment.
Am I surprised, no. I knew it would happen y yeah. It looks like my wild adventures with him y his family has finally come to an end. I know that my Dad won't forsake me yet, but within the near future, most likely after Thanksgiving, I will no longer be accepted as his son, because I won't speak out against the LDS church y support the GLBT's. Don't y'all love family drama?

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Superficial?

Can a relationship be based on a superficial love? I was raised to love God y his gospel. I am a faithful member of the LDS church, but my father despises that church y lets me know it, about every time I see him.
I received an email from him last night, letting me know that he will not let politics y religion get in-between our relationship. I know that as the years come y go, religion will become a a huge factor in our relationship.
We also talked on the phone today y he mentioned how much he hated mormons, because of Prop 8 in California. Knowing that our relationship depends on how the election turns out, I look forward to Wed morning, waiting the wrath or the love that will come from my father.