How are we progressing?

Today in my religion class we talked about the first 4 chapters of 1st Nephi. We were talking about having the faith to get out of our comfort zone and walk into the dark. Nephi has his famous I will go and do verse in 1st Nephi 3:7. In 4:6 he is acting upon what he stated in the previous chapter.

My teacher then asked us how many times we ourselves boast about being able to do things but then not doing them. How many times are we like Laman and Lemuel doing the things of the Lord but complaining the whole time.

While sitting in class I had the impression that this is what I needed to do. I had to follow Nephi's example and take a chance and live by my faith. I've always been someone who will not do anything until I could see the benefits to doing that one thing. I've come to the conclusion that I must just start walking blind for a little bit to be able to find out where I must end up.
It's like my friends say, a parked car can get you no where.

Chuck and Larry

I've had people recomend this movie to me over the past couple of days. When I tell them no they are confussed why I have no desire to see this movie. I've never tried to explain it to anyone but to be blunt I've lived that movie.
Okay I haven't ever decided to pretend to be gay to make money, or ever would ocnsider that option but I do have a Gay father who did get "married" (If you can even call it that). I was invited to the wedding and had to tel my Dad that I wouldn't go. It was the hardest thing that I have ever done. Well that "marriage" lasted a whole 3-4 months and then came a divorce.
Well I am only posting this because my father has decided that he is again in love and has a date set for another wedding. This is something that I cannot stand for. I know that it is going to destroy him when I tell him that I will not go. Last time he didn't communicate with my brother and I for a few months. This time he is going to flip and not understand again. I know exactly what is going to happen and it will not be pretty.
So I am warning anyone who reads this that if you see me and I look a little heated I jsut got off the phone with my dad.

How Life Throws You Curve Balls

"Charlie. Find somebody you want to spend the rest of your life with, and hold onto her forever."

It is a liI ne from the movie entitled the Italian Job. This is a line that started me thinking again this past weekend.

Well last summer I started dating the coolest girl that I have ever known. We dated for 3 1/2 months when she came to me out of the blue and told me that she had prayed about if we should stay together and was told that we shouldn't. Well she called it off and I was heart broken. I've now come to find out that since that day 4-5 months ago, I have become more anti social then ever before.

I am posting this because she has now come back into my life. On Thursday of last week, when I went home, my mom told me that Diane had been over and talked to her for 3 hours. I wasn't surprised because over the past few months she has tried to have me over for dinner, but I always made an excuse up why I wasn't able to make it at the given time.

I had a date bail on me for Friday, so against what I believed and had told myself I called her up and we went to a movie on Friday. Since then the flood gate has been opened. She told me that she wasn't sure what she wanted. She also said that she feels so happy to be around me and my friends. It seems that she wants to get back together but at the same time she doesn't. She also said that she is scared of commitment and wants to try and live on faith. Well she broke up with me because, she said that she had prayed about it. So I dunno if that was just a lie that she told me to split us up.

I know have no idea what to do. I missed her a ton but I don't think that I could be her friend and see her with other guys. I've tried so many different ways to forget about her but I cannot seem to do so. I want to date her again but I have my doubts that it would do either of us any good.