How Life Throws You Curve Balls

"Charlie. Find somebody you want to spend the rest of your life with, and hold onto her forever."

It is a liI ne from the movie entitled the Italian Job. This is a line that started me thinking again this past weekend.

Well last summer I started dating the coolest girl that I have ever known. We dated for 3 1/2 months when she came to me out of the blue and told me that she had prayed about if we should stay together and was told that we shouldn't. Well she called it off and I was heart broken. I've now come to find out that since that day 4-5 months ago, I have become more anti social then ever before.

I am posting this because she has now come back into my life. On Thursday of last week, when I went home, my mom told me that Diane had been over and talked to her for 3 hours. I wasn't surprised because over the past few months she has tried to have me over for dinner, but I always made an excuse up why I wasn't able to make it at the given time.

I had a date bail on me for Friday, so against what I believed and had told myself I called her up and we went to a movie on Friday. Since then the flood gate has been opened. She told me that she wasn't sure what she wanted. She also said that she feels so happy to be around me and my friends. It seems that she wants to get back together but at the same time she doesn't. She also said that she is scared of commitment and wants to try and live on faith. Well she broke up with me because, she said that she had prayed about it. So I dunno if that was just a lie that she told me to split us up.

I know have no idea what to do. I missed her a ton but I don't think that I could be her friend and see her with other guys. I've tried so many different ways to forget about her but I cannot seem to do so. I want to date her again but I have my doubts that it would do either of us any good.