School

Well today another dismal outing with Sunday Scribble. I dunno, I canceled it the week before because I didn't want to be around people, today was the exact same thing minus canceling it. I've been in a rut for the past week of not wanting to see anybody y just keep to myself.
I'm hoping that I come out of this. I hate feeling this way, but I'm just letting the stress of life take over. It's not that school is to hard, I've only had 3 days of class y I'm not behind, yet.
So if no one hears from me over the next few weeks, it's cause I'm taking a LONG break from life.

Was it fun?

So this past weekend we had the third annual Scavenger hunt. Well in the end my team was victorious y walked away with our heads held high or did we? I won't lie at the moment I was stoked that my team won, but the next day I felt empty inside. I've also lost the desire to compete next year.
The previous year, my team placed 2nd in the hunt but I was happy when it was all said y done. That next day, I was cheerful as I was the day before. My only explanation is, the first year I participated, I actually went with someone that I cared about y wanted to go with. This year the two girls I wanted to go with couldn't go. The first one was moving to Logan that day y the second said yes at first, but later bailed out cause she "had to study" for the LSAT.
I ended up going with someone that I didn't know y so did my team ate. I'm not saying that the girls were bad girls, they were actually a lot of fun to hang out with, but it was just different. I now what it feels like to go on a date y come away with an empty feeling, as in why did I just do that. I don't think it was my date, but I just wasn't into it as I thought I was.

Oops

So I totally offened someone with my blog, that is a first. I mean the person was PISSED. I feel bad, but what can you do, besides delete it y move on.
Well all I can say is that work is amazing, I love my job. Each day I am truly humbled by the blessings that I have been given. I work with three men who have mental y physical limitations. I go to their house y help them by taking them out into society to interact with others. I also teach them life skills. This is one of the most rewarding jobs that I have. Now it doesn't pay as well as the other job I had here in Provo, but I can actually see how I am helping others. I came to the fact today that the people born with mental problems y serious physical limitations are the people that have a lot more going for them than someone like me. These people really what the scriptures would say, like a "child". I'm really grateful for the lessons that I have learned there over the past two weeks!
Side note, my blog is really negative y I need to make seem more possitve so I'm going to try to actually write more about the good things in my life that have affected me.
Another side note, Team Black will not lose this year unless we are still dateless by the time we have the scavenger hunt.