Education

Our English teacher yesterday was trying to explain the importance of hard work. He was showing us examples of people that have work hard to become perfectionists in their area of work. One of the examples he used was that of Jimmy Page.
He introduced Jimmy as being a member of the greatest American rock band to exist. As soon as he mentioned American Rock and greatest, I knew he was talking about Led Zeppelin. I was sitting next to 3 freshman, all of whom are 18, and the looks on their faces when he mentioned Led Zeppelin made me shake my head in disgust. They had no idea who Led Zeppelin was.
I watched them look at each other and shake their heads, as if our teacher was crazy and had no idea what music really was. I almost took the ipod away from one of them to "see" what their idea of music was, but I decided to sit back and enjoy their blank stares.
As I was leaving I heard one of them mention the name Kurt Cobain. That almost sent me over the edge. They were that uneducated that first off they had never heard of Led Zeppelin and #2 they actually thought Nirvana, a talentless band, had talent.
I'll give Kurt enough credit to say that he was a lyrical genius but nothing else. He doesn't even rank amongst the best guitar players in the world, living and dead.
Led Zeppelin brought something into this world that will never be taken out of it! Kurt Cobain tried to do something but failed miserably.

The Third Tag

You are supposed to answer with the first things that come into your head.
Here goes on this one:

1. Where is your cell phone? In my pocket

2. Your hair? A mess

3. Work? A Chore

4. Your Father? On his own

5. Your favorite thing? cuddling

6. Your dream last night? Don't remember

7. Your favorite drink? Apple Beer

8. Your dream car? The Camero from "Better Off Dead."

9. The room you are in? My prison

10. Your fears? Ending up being alone
11. What do you want to be in ten years? Happy with a family

12. Who did you hang out with last night? Kati

13. What you are not good at? Answers to a test I didn't study for

14. Muffin? Mmmmmm

15. One of your wish list items? A person to love

16. Where you grew up? Provo y Seat

17. Last thing you did? Watched a movie with Kati

18. What are you wearing? clothes, it's cold outside

19. What aren't you wearing? female clothes

20. Your pet? Momo

21. Your computer? Apple

22. Your life? It's alright

23. Your mood? Enjoyable

24. Missing? My mother

25. What are you thinking about right now? My tooth

26. Your car/truck? dying on me

27. Your summer? Right around the corner

28. Your relationship status? For the moment I'm taken

29. Your favorite color? Black and Blue

30. When was the last time you laughed with meaning? On Sat while rock climbing

31. Last time you cried? Friday while watching Martian Child

32. School? Don't remind me

33. Least favorite weather? COLD

34. Soup? Tomato Basil

35. Movie? Martian Child, Dead Poets Society, other thinking movies

The Numbers game from Sean

Sean tagged me in this post so here we go!

10 years ago I was : I was going through a little adventure called Puberty! What an experience. I'm glad that I will not have to go through this again.

5 things on my to do list for today: Clean the house, do two chapters in my Psychology book, go the endodontist, Do sections 5.1 y 5.2 for math and do a little research for my paper in English.

4 things I would do if I became a billionaire: Travel, Try to help as many people as I could, buy a get away cabin in the hills of Ireland, go on a cruise.

3 bad habits: not cleaning up my room, never truly giving myself credit for anything, procrastinating

5 places I have lived: Provo - UT, Bountiful - UT, West Jordan - UT, Jujuy - AR, Seattle WA

5 jobs I have had: Janitor at the MTC, Cook at the MTC, Launch Team for Bright Builders, Lawn care at my own house, Slave for my mother

6 Things most people don't know about me: I'm not a fan of the tv show The Office, I'm a avid reader, when I have the time, I love chic flicks, I hate to see people going through at hard time, I love board games, I try to make peoples life easier all of the time.

What am I going to be reading?

I read Sean's blog and saw this post. I purchased this book yesterday to reread. I opened the book up to page 123 and went 5 lines down. The next three read:

"Mercy!"
Javert turned his back.
The soldiers seized her by the arms.

This is one of my favorite books that I have ever read. I put it on my summer reading list with three other books yesterday. The other three are, The Road, Kite Runner, and The Counte of Monte Cristo.

Inadequate

I took a look at a couple of events that have happened in my life as of late. Mainly I've looked at this new relationship that has started to blossom between me y K. I see other people that look so happy together and wonder if I will ever have what they have. I am happy when I am with K, but I know it will not last, she'll pray about it and know that it's not supposed to work, y I'll be thrown back into the same mess I was in before.
I shouldn't think like this, but I cannot help it. Whenever I find something/someone that I truly care about I lose them or they leave me for something better. It really feels like that to me. My mom tells me that I give my heart away to easily and it's true, I do. I'm not like the typical male, that will saw what he wants y uses the girl until he's tired of her y decides to move on. I truly do care about how others feel and I try my best to make others feel loved.
I was promised that one day I would find that person and be truly happy, but I have lost most hope in doing that. I know I am young, but I've seen to much pain in my life to not always be prepared for them to leave me or use me.
I'll enjoy what I have right now, knowing that it most likely won't last. I have no confidence in myself y I know it. Life is great, but I cannot wait to get out of what I am in right now and move off into the great unknown that is waiting for me.

My Tiny Dancer

Over the past few weeks, I've been getting to know a certain young lady in my ward better. Well I home teach her and her roommate. I've been hanging out with her for a while now but I couldn't allow myself to like her because of the following:

1. I am her home teacher
2. She is in my ward
3. She has a missionary out who left in Nov.

Well those were my concerns that I had after our first date. I mean I couldn't stop thinking about her after one date. I would make excuses to go and visit her to just see her and be around her, home teacher, right?
Her roommate started to try to give me hints that I should date her, but I could never bring myself to do it, due to the items listed above. I was afraid of being rejected, yet again by another female.
Last week I decided that I was going to tell her how I felt about her, until I found out that she was heading to Cali with a couple of other guys from the ward. I had a feeling that she might like one of them or the other way around. I decided to give up, but my friend Kenny and Tiatia, kept telling me that Cali was nothing.
Well last night I took her to the BYU vs Utah basketball game. After the game we went to what I call the tunnel of doom. It reminds me of the beginning of "Indiana Jones and the Lost Ark" movie. Only that the spiders are all dead in the winter, but their webs are still hanging up. In there I decided to tell her exactly how I felt and see where it went. It ends up that she has been waiting for me to open up and yeah. We talked about the concerns that I had and decided that they were not important at all.
A little about my friend. She's only 5'3". She has amazing little brown hair with a hint of red hair. Her blue eyes are enough to melt someones heart. If she hasn't won you over yet, then all she has to do is flash you an radiant smile. How can anyone resist such a smile? She's down to earth and just a nice person.

2 1/2 months and counting

I love Utah but I've gotten to the point that I am fed up of being here in a place of no change. I need change in my life. My life at the moment is going to school and then to work. Day in and day out. On the weekends I'll get together with some buddies of mine, unless they are busy with their girls, and we'll hang out. It's not that I don't appreciate everyone and appreciate my life I just need a change. I need to leave the bubble I am living in and go somewhere, where not everyone had the same values, where I can make a difference for doing what is right. Here I am just lost in the crowd.
I keep telling myself that I am going to leave Provo and come back occasionally, but I cannot bring myself to leave my mom and my good friend Zac. Both need me at the moment, but for how much longer? Will I be ready to leave when I am not needed anymore? It seems that no matter how much I've tried to change everyone keeps pulling me back down to how I used to be, let me free. I need to be free.
I'm sick of the same question I always receive from others, are you dating? Do you have a GF? Are you engaged? The answer will always be no until they stop asking. I don't date, why because I cannot win. No matter how hard I've tried I've never been good enough for anyone in Utah.
If I want to leave so bad, why did I decide to run for Utah Valley next year? I've come to the fact that track is the only thing that truly makes me happy besides reading my scriptures and doing other churchy things.
Those were a few things that have been bothering me as of late. I need to be better at posting.